Rut

It is so easy to fall into a rut only to realize weeks have gone by and you haven't done a single productive thing. That is where I am right now. I want to sleep. I want to cry. I want more time. Then I think what am I saying? I have more free time than the average 36 year old woman. It's times like this I disgust myself. Who am I to ask for anything? If I just stop and look around I will see how good I have it. I am spoiled. I don't have the right to be unhappy. Girl, suck it up! Go take a shower and DO SOMETHING!

Transitional State

I have been in a transitional state for so long that I'm not even sure what my "normal" is anymore. I am happy though. I haven't been able to say that for a very long time. I feel like I am finally on the right path. I have a new found love of collage. Well, maybe not so much new as a realization that collage is the media for me. I have made some pen friends, and found I learn a lot about myself when I write. I send small works of art in my letters hoping to bring a little happiness to someone's day. I think connecting with people is a calling I never realized I had. I have always been shy, quiet, and awkward around people in person, but through letters I find the awkwardness disappears. I created a sort of mission statement for myself..." My life's journey is to connect with people all over the world, make art, and bring joy and inspiration to others." My mission statement is why i am here blogging again. I feel if I can inspire someone to follow their passions before it's too late, I have done my duty. That being said, I haven't the first clue how to do that! I am simply here to tell my story.